As I sit here in sunny San Diego I’m reflecting on grateful I am for my journey. I’ve been through a few ups and downs and I know they all happened at the right time and for a magical reason. However, I know when you’re in the thick of counting change in old purses so you can buy yourself a coffee, you can’t always see the way out.
I remember sitting down on the couch with my dog by my side and we had ran out of food for him…..I was unemployed and and very unclear on how I was supposed to turn my financial situation around when jobs weren’t available here and truthfully, my heart knew I had to step up and make a change and actually take a RISK doing something I wanted to do……but how and what and when?! All of these questions and doubt would funnel into my head…
As I sat with Hudson on the couch I asked him – “Is this really what I want to be doing with my life?” Of course, he’s a dog, so he didn’t answer me, but I knew he what he was thinking, “No! You want to be inspiring people and changing lives and coaching people through their fears and limiting beliefs”!
I knew this what I had to do.
For the next few months I dove into my own shit. Fear was slapping me in the face and instead of bowing down to it like I had been for 29 years of my life, I faced it and it felt GOOD! Once I started to step into the things that I was scared of, peeked into the places within me I didn’t feel comfortable with, my life started to change! My coach reached out to me and asked if she could help…..the magic comes when you’re on track and in flow. I was flowing!
I paid my coach when I could and asked her to mentor me. I needed to learn as much as I could about being a good coach and getting my own life back so I could be a walking billboard for my friends and future clients.
As my journey continued more bumps happened, more debt happened, more random numbers calling the home happened and hiccups like these used to kick me to my butt but this time was different because I was able to see that a way out was clear and I wanted to change my life.
You know the story of how I started a flourishing business and what I do with my time, so I won’t bore you there but I did want to remind you that if you’re like I was and struggling trying to find what the heck to do with your life or what your purpose is, I invite you to look deeper into the places that you want to tuck away.
How was this girl that was so shy and so scared to talk to people ever going to grow a successful home based business and coaching business? ME?! I did it because I looked into these parts of me that I hated and that I was ashamed of and gave them light again and asked them to teach me what I needed to learn so I could teach others……
Now today as I sit in San Diego with my man on an amazing few day getaway, surrounded by people who are winning and changing the world I realized I could never have done this without turning my negative self talk and dislike towards myself into love and abundance.
I invite you today to really think about what you want to be doing with your life and the direction you want to take and ask yourself “WHY” you’re not doing it? Is it fear? Is it lack of belief? Maybe you don’t think you’re worthy of success and flip it around, what would it look like if YOU WERE doing what you loved and helping people? What if you were getting paid to do what you loved more than anything? How would you feel? Play there for a bit and let me know how it feels.
My belief is that we’re here to life our purpose and feel fulfilled every day!